Disappointment.

I'm not usually one of those people that openly show their feelings to everyone, but something that I will always be open about with others is my disappointment. I don't know why, it's a feeling that makes you regret, and make you challenge how you originally thought about that topic or person.

For me it comes in many forms, whether it is what a person has done or what I have done personally. But what ever the reason it leaves you feeling bitter, and slightly useless. What ever you put yourself forward to do, you put enough effort in for feel that sense of disappointment at the end if you didn't do as well as you expected. You must have felt connected and hopeful about it enough to be upset about it enough to feel like you should of done better.

Or maybe it was that hope of something better, maybe it is like the picture I put along with this- the anticipation of something to arrive, or open. And it's nothing like what you hoped for, that sigh of disappointment. That sigh of what you hoped. That sigh of regret.

So what is disappointment? Regret? Or what happens when you become over ambitious? Or false hope?

I know that I hate feeling being insecure about something, that false hope, that false sense of security. But disappointment is that feeling, just after everything happened. And there is no undo button.

So is disappointment more regret or just not expecting the outcome?

Ellie.

Miracles or false hope?

Why do we even have the word "miracles"? I think it just sets up us to think that they exist, that they exist on a regular basis, that they exist enough for every human being to see one or be part of a miracle at one point in their lives.

So just by having this word exist does it make you feel like it's going to be something you will see? And even if this word does exist what would you classify as a "miracle"? What's the difference between a miracle or just being lucky? So be honest, do you think that there are some things that could be classed as a miracle?

I know that all miracles aren't going to be like the parting of the sea, the feeding of the 5,000, David and Goliath. I am not religious, but reading/hearing these miracles, doesn't it just make you wonder and compare what sort of "miracles we see today?

So can we really class something really lucky as a "miracle" if we compare what others have told us? How do we really believe in such a thing as miracles if we never see them ourselves?

So the word may be misleading but maybe it gives hope to those who have nothing else to hope for. But doesn't that just mean that they have a false sense of security? They have given themselves false hope?


Ellie.

(Sorry for the literal picture! The effects you can do on Photoshop are just mind blowing sometimes!)