Trust.

Trust takes almost a whole life time to fully make, but can only be seconds to break.

You look back and think, why did I even trust this person enough to let them into my life? I know for me letting someone in is something that takes a long time, it takes bravery and some times that last bit of a leap of faith. But what would human kind be without those times where you just have to close your eyes and jump? We would all the be the same, doing nothing with our lives because we would never risk any of it. By why does it always seem that the only time you genuinely do give all the effort you have to trust them, to get down your guard down. I know for some people this is just a natural thing that happens quite regularly. Don't even need to give much consideration or thinking into it, you just let people in.

But where does that real;y get you? Yes, you may have a more people to talk to about your things you want trusted and safe, but how many of them do you really trust with all of it? Trust everything you have ever said and know they are going to take it to their grave. I would rather know that a smaller group of people were there for me, and completely had my back, rather than a larger group of people that may change their "loyalties".

I know this whole trust issue that everyone faces almost seems selfish, that you trust someone that is completely loyal to you- no one else. That's what trust is, a selfish way of protecting yourself and being able to say after all of it either thank you for being there, or I won't be able to trust you again. So why does it take so long to make that trust that can really be relied on, and only seconds to break?

Because it takes a lot for that person to jump, but only a small hole in the parachute is all it takes for that trust to completely fail you.

Ellie.

-And I promise I will put some artwork and photos up at some point, I just feel the need to write about things that have all my thoughts captured.