Stress.

Most people have nightmares about not being able to run away from someone or something. Or the feeling of falling waking you up. Or being sat in an exam not having an clue why you are even there.

Those sleepless nights where your brain keeps ticking away and you can't get any real sleep because you are so focused on what you need to do, and what you should of already done better. 

I don't know whether it's my brain telling me I need to be better, do better, push myself to who I can really be, or my brain just not being able to let me rest, and stop thinking about everything. But whatever sleepless nights are because of it doesn't help the amount of stress that everyone goes through. Sleep deprivation on top of the stress isn't helping, so why do we have it as a human instinct? 

I think most people agree that sleep is their own way of having "me time", so why is it that when you really need that "me time" you never seem to get any? It really does confuse me, how does this design in evolution help anything? 

My usual ways of de-stressing is eating lots of ice cream, or anything that puts a smile on my face. But I just don't feel up for making myself feel lazy and sick by eating too much! Other than that I go shopping, or do my work but neither seem to have the same satisfaction as they did before, I guess the sleep deprivation has had me on edge for quite a while. 

I know so many people who have stressful points in their lives, where they just want to sit in a dark room for hours just shutting the world out. The feeling of regret as you wake up in the morning after a completely sleep less night, but you can't do anything but smile and hope that no one notices the fact that you have yawned more then 10 times in the last half an hour. 

I guess it just shows strength in character not to run away from all the obstacles thrown at you, but to face them and try you hardest every single time.

I know I don't usually do personal posts, but I thought I would do something that I felt for at the moment. I just wanted to show that everyone has the same emotions thrown at them one way or another, but the way we deal with them as individuals and as a community makes us who we are. 

Ellie.